Oddly enough, the new relationship came to a screeching and abrupt end on Saturday around noon. Apparently, my insecurity was too much for him. “We went too fast,” he said. Hell, I could have told you that. As well as the overbearing physical closeness and over-texting. Funny, though, he had no problem with physical closeness and being thisclose our first night getting to know each other. That’s when the going too fast part started. At the very very beginning. Before there was a beginning. And oddly enough, after the first hour of venting to a friend, I was feeling much better already…an hour? Okay, so if I am seriously feeling much better in an hour’s time of talking to a friend, then how heavy of a loss was it? I mean, yeah, I was upset when he told me today and in the aftermath of texting with a friend. An hour later, and I am over it? Maybe the relief of not stressing about texts or calls that never come.
I learned a few things about myself. That’s huge. I think anytime we can be what self-improvement is in order till I practice my imperfections. That’s the key to being open-minded though. We have to actually be willing to see those imperfections and have the volition to make positive changes. There’s the rub! We have to actually do something to effect change so that the disaster was not in vain.The disaster was just a tool to greater self awareness and a new improved you!