So why are there so many men looking for princesses and queens on POF… other dating sites, for that matter? You’d think they would know princesses and queens are for Disney or some far off country. Or are there really a lot of women here in the US of A that want to be treated like a princess? I really don’t know the answer to that. I can’t imagine wanting to be treated like a princess and it leaves a bad aftertaste in my mouth. Like Tab from the 80’s.
You see, I want a partner, not a pedestal. I want someone to walk side by side with me, someone I can discuss things with across the table at dinner. I am not helpless. I don’t need a proverbial pedestal to know my worth. I want to be able to be respected and treated as an equal partner. I am not some princess that needs “things”, much less a pedestal for my ego. What is it with guys today? What do they think we want?
A princess, I guess….
She had twenty minutes to evacuate.
In all my preparation for Paris and figuring out my dating situation, I misplaced my ambition to work out. Where in the hell did I put it? I swear it was somewhere up in the closet with my myriad of work-out gear and clothes. Damn. I have looked for it half -assed, I have to admit lately. I have taken a real liking to focusing on Paris and where I will go, what will I see, how long will I stay out each day….that I totally forgot to maintain my exercise schedule, so all that walking in Paris will be easy peasy.
I need to reassign my ambition, but with the blisters on my heels from yesterday’s selection of brand new shoes, this is going to be a little challenging. It’s my own fault for not putting on bandaids before I put the shoes on. Back to ambition. See, I lost it again. So close, yet so far away. I even have a work-out playlist and really cute things to wear. I even went on a short hike Saturday. So why is it so short-lived when I lost 30 pounds with awesome dedication in 2016? It is so odd! I’m still trying to figure it out.
I am supposed to on the treadmill now per my agreement with my hiking buddy. But I am not. The blisters. I need to heal the blisters and get on with it!
Let’s work out!!
“Going to Paris,” she said. “Solo.”
I know I am kinda obsessed about talking about Paris. I mean it, so excited. I can’t wait. Is there any possibility that I am putting off discussing and talking about what my blog is really about, friendships, relationships,etc? That something about being friends with someone important to me and moving on to see if there is someone else that brings me exceptional happiness. My guess, based on my six years of post divorce internet dating, is no.
Through all my experiences with online dating, no one really out there truly available is honest, funny, attractive and intelligent. Sure, these words are pouring all over the profiles. So are the words “looking for relationship”, etc.
In the last week at least, I have found people who state they live in Denver, but they are actually posted overseas for whatever reason for whatever time period. They promise to keep writing back and forth for an indeterminate amount of time. Last time I saw this a year ago, two guys tried to scam me. Of course I got pulled in to emailing them, but once the scam started, I got right out. And of course never heard from them again. The other half of the alleged “relationship seekers” use that as bait and as soon as you sound interested, they start asking about sexual positions and bed size. While a man may feel these are legitimate interview questions, I will maintain that there are other things I’d like to know about a perfect stranger that don’t include their sheet count or how many inches they are blessed or punished with…Jesus, boys. Reign it in a little bit. If you are looking for an actual relationship, these things can come a little later. If you are really about the FWB, it all makes perfect sense. Just be honest…. and this is why I have so much trouble with all this..
I operate on honesty as the highest premise. Sometimes, I don’t like the answer or what is reflected in honesty, but I would take integrity any day of the week. Sometimes knowing something to be true has me thinking about it, obsessed about it and unable to effectively move on. Then I remember, I asked for honesty. And yes, I am blessed when I am gifted with it (even in the dark hours of pretending ignorance is bliss).
I got my Paris Pass yesterday! The more I look at all the travel in central Paris that will be required to visit everywhere I want to go, I realize one thing: I could get seriously lost!! It all looks so easy with color coded Metro stops and maps, so how could I get lost, right??? I’ll find a way to lose sight of the touristy spot I was headed toward. I am sure of it! And it will be an adventure. I am not new to doing things solo. I AM new to doing things in areas I am not 100% confident of where I am going. So breaking out of the comfort zone will be a huge undertaking, but I am so excited. A little nervous, but mostly excited. This is one of the most adventurous things I have planned so far. My last adventure was driving cross-country solo. Twice. Six months apart. And that’s a different story for a different time.
You may think that my blog is about relationships, so why would I start writing about travel. You could be on to something. However, the relationship I have with myself is probably the most important for me right now. If I am ultimately confident with myself (being okay with possibly getting lost in Paris) and feel worthy of spending the money to go all by myself, a boosted self-esteem by the end of my holiday can’t be too far behind, right?
In the meantime, stay posted for my blog posts here in Denver.
So, I am going on my vacation next month. You got it-September! I have vacationitis now, damn it! I must keep my focus on my work outs (which have significantly diminished unfortunately) and my work project for October’s conference. So hard, so hard. All I can think about is my trip. I am taking it solo, so I am a bit nervous, but overwhelmingly ecstatic!!!
You see, I am going to Paris. Yep, my first time. I have so much to see and do in 7 days, I hope I can soak it all in. I have gotten my Lonely Planet book, my day excursion and Eiffel Tower tickets, as well as my Paris Pass. I am faithfully reading my book as I am very much the planner. I wish I could just wing it and land in Paris and figure it all out. That’s just not me though. I have had my flights and flat (7th district) set up for almost a year. I felt like I was procrastinating when I just made the local attractions plans. I’m the person who will study the Paris Metro system and where I am going on the Hop on hop off Big Bus tour. I know that is exceptionally touristy. Guess what? I am a tourist! I know better than to dress and act like one. I am studying my basic French phrases, but I think I need to master the accent and my pronunciation is horrible. Effort counts right?
I am slowly organizing my itinerary. Like I said, I am a planner. Anyone who has been to Paris and has any “Must Do” suggestions, please leave me a comment. Some of my must do’s are below and I realize there is SOOOO much to see; there is no way I can do it in 7 days and nights:
- Eiffel Tower (duh)
- Musee d’Orsay
- Musee Louvre (but, of course)
- Notre Dame
- Champs Elysees (missing the accents, I am aware)
- the tuileries
- Arc de Triomphe
- Pere Lachaise Cemetary (think Jim Morrison, Oscar Wilde, Edith Piaf and more)
- and sooo much more.
For the actual trip, I have used Pinterest to get ideas regarding the actual travel, packing & what NOT to do. Please drop me a line if you have any thing at all to suggest!
Music pairing: Tabou by Les Nubians