The nightlife, the first dates, the first kisses…Will he call or more or less likely, text? Do I miss the ability to do what I want when I want? Which could possibly mean eating a bag of licorice deep in cycling through six seasons of Sex and the City? Without judgment? Do I miss douchebags cancelling or just blowing off a date? What do you think?? But the licorice eating and Sex and the City? Well, that’s a trick question.
Honestly, I don’t know how or why I could miss the majority of single life. It was lonely and unrewarding. The last guy I dated before I met my current boyfriend was an absolute douchebag. He was a great actor/player. He only kept two dates with me and one he was two hours late for. So, he just wasn’t that into me. That’s absolutely fine. Then grow a pair and tell me….don’t string me along. Yes, Patton, I am talking about you The guy before him? We just weren’t compatible; he wasn’t a douchebag, but it would have never worked. Belize had been a disaster.
By the end of the Belize vacation, I was resigned to being single for a long time. I just wasn’t going to sell out to anyone who happened to be interested in me or someone I was interested in (but the feeling wasn’t mutual). I was so thankful I had scheduled my 12 day vacation in the spring. It would be a celebration of my independence and singlehood. Then Christmas Day happened. I couldn’t resist the chemistry that happened. We just seemed to belong together.
So today, I am so happy to be where I am. I had mixed feelings about leaving my boyfriend to go Europe, I was anxious about whether our relationship was solid enough to be leaving the country for almost two weeks. Or what he would do when I was gone. That’s my insecurity talking, by the way. I completely trust him and that did take a minute to develop. I have to remember to celebrate my independent nature even if I am ecstatically saying good-bye to the single lifestyle. I need to do me once in a great while; this European vacation has not an iota to do with saying so long to monogamy. That’s a no brainer I am extremely committed to my guy and I have absolutely no desire to even entertain flirting. This is taking some time to celebrate 50 years on this planet. That’s all. I don’t think I need to be single and sacrifice my relationship to do some me time. It just happens to be 12 days out of the country.
So, do I miss being single? Not one bit. Not even a little. I still eat licorice and watch Sex and the City, by the way.
What I’m listening to: Single by Everything But The Girl