Happy birthday to me.

As I get closer to my birthday this year, I realize there is so much I want to do to transform myself and to improve myself. I am starting a physical transformation in the next few weeks to months with my appearance. I am getting a mini makeover with my hair (big cut and color to go back to brown). I loved my hair blonde-ish but it fried my hair and it looks fried and so unhealthy, so this weekend, I am starting with a cut. Then, later this month comes the color. I can’t wait! The more important physical transformation will come with my weight loss and that comes with physical fitness, which I as you know has been a continuing struggle for me.

I’m going to the gym today with a friend to really commit to this because June didn’t cut it. I want to lose 40-50 pounds by next April and nothing really happened in June. I have joined Weight Watchers, which is awesome, but I have not been as consistent as I should have. To use an old phrase from my old life, it only works if you work it! I changed gyms because while I love, love, love the gym I have been going to, it’s been financially prohibitive. I joined a new gym that offers so much of the same stuff, but less than half of the current gym. I plan on going there Saturday (I am going to my friend’s gym today). I need to up my cardio game and try 30 minutes on the bike or treadmill instead of just 20. I think I am doing a good job on the weights as I am NOT trying to body build, but add muscle tone and strength.

The last part of my transformation is going to be mind/spirit oriented. I am looking at simplifying my life. How will I do that? I need to focus on filtering out the toxic people, working on my anxiety and spending more time at home with my new pup Cosette and English Bulldog, Sasha. I bought a coloring book and colored pencils and I think starting that will be really calming. I have heard good things about the practice of that type of focus.

I am going to use my birthday for New Year’s resolutions of sorts. I will keep you posted!!

Why so long???

I ask myself this….. why haven’t I posted in so long? I could say that I have been busy, but everyone is busy….excuses, excuses… Is it because I am afraid of getting stalked a little and my voice is self-censored because I don’t want to deal with that? Maybe. Is it because I don’t have anything to say right now? I don’t think so, I am always thinking of things to blog about at the most inopportune time.

I changed gyms and getting regular with a gym that I love; the problem has been food. Food gets in the way and we know you can’t outrun a bad diet. Not that I run….of course not, but you know what I mean. Over all, I have been better, but as I type, I am sipping on a calorie free iced tea paired with a polycaloric croissant. Why do I do this to myself? I have eaten slightly less sugary crap. Though, when that Cinnabon store opens at the mall, I will be in trouble.

What I need to do is carve out time for meal prep like I used to do. I prepared the week by making chicken on one day and a big salad and eating that during the week, This is what I need to be doing. I will blog more. And more often. That is my promise to you!

Till then….

No more treadmill….

I am writing for the first time in quite some time. So much that in this time, I joined a gym, got a personal trainer, again, and got my treadmill recalled. They picked it up and now no more treadmill. I have been going to the gym fairly faithfully to meet up with my trainer and to work out on my own.

I haven’t been motivated to write in a while because while I am working out, I have been struggling with the food piece of fitness and a healthy lifestyle. I am recommitting to fix that starting June 1st; my goal is to stress veggies and protein in each of my meals and to eat every 2-3 hours. I am just being honest, but I do think once I make a firm change in the food component of healthy living, I will see weight loss and feeling better on a daily basis. It’s pretty obvious that is what it takes, so why is it so hard for me?